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Monday, May 30, 2011
This blogspot have lots of memories. Just read the oldest post and it was extremely naive. I have no choice that i really want to close down this blog. Because i no longer have the urge to blog and no longer have problems that occurred in the past. I thank this place as one of the best medium i could use to vent everything. It stuck with me since Secondary One and i have complained, moaned and rejoice so much over here. Now that i have Graduated from poly already, It just shows how long i am stuck with blogger! Reading about life during my secondary school is great. Because back then i was occupied with a lot of things. Life was stressful but at the same time i didnt know that it was gonna be the best time of my life. The three years in poly was like fine tuning my character building throughout. I am proud to say i am really much stronger mentally now. Got past those sad moments and now i am living life that i have never been. But right at my age now is almost like transition. So i will adapt soon enough and i was take the moment to thank those who took their time to come read my blog. I hereby announce the end of this blog. RIP
2:56 AM
Thursday, March 03, 2011
I feel like dying now. Not that i am upset or what. But there is something bothering so badly. Its like i keep thinking about it. Its disgusting this way cause i lose my focus. At the same time feeling this way makes me worried its like affecting me so badly. Sense of ambiguity is something closest i can describe.Regret doing so much things suddenly. Feel that i took so many wrong choices during my polytechnic studies. Sometimes i wish they are really reading this. But no one reads anymore so whatever. Feel so guilty. Feel like if only i didnt choose sides and refuse to believe certain bullshits. I am totally upset. Because there is just a barrier right now that could never be moved away. Definitely going have a tough time sleeping tonight.
11:20 PM
Monday, February 28, 2011
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Friday, November 26, 2010
Actually don't really feel like doing this all over again but for that sake of my friend. Here i am!!!Right now, right at this moment, really damn sick of school work. On my own bed at night yearning for a peaceful sleep, thoughts would always just flow through. Things that i worry the most would go through first, followed by things i want to do and lastly things i wish to do. Truthfully, sometimes i do wish i can speak up about certain things to a person. But, then i think again how many really understand really what i am going through? It just seems like when i get older, i really wish for some time alone but yet i do wish i have some time to talk to someone. I am still so unsure how satisfied i am with my life. There is this one thing i really wished to do since i was young. To play soccer professionally. Donning the jersey doing wonderful stuffs. Never succeed and no fate with soccer at all. Then i realized there were also a truckload of regrets i have leading to my unsatisfactory life. There is actually nothing i look forward to right now. In the past, I always feel that i had to achieve something and do something. Am i reaching the end now? Feel so upset whenever i am like alone going through some mental difficulties. If there is a chart to illustrate my life right now, its probably at the lowest point right now. Hope i wake up from this dreams of dreams of dreams soon and i do wanna feel cheerful but nothing can bring it up. I do no love myself today. :( HW: My Friend, Fragile and like to act tough. Come on!! Show your feminine side more often!!!
12:51 AM
Saturday, March 20, 2010
I just completed a 16 hours 8-5 2 days training programme for teaching internship. It was really useful but the amount of hours is just unbearable. Having a 55 years of teaching experience trainer was delighting but his explanation pace is really kind of slow. Perhaps he was just trying to enforce us to remember most of the strategies but i feel that when it comes to teaching, you won't have time to think of all those strategies to deal with various obstacles. From Monday onwards, i will be reporting to sch at 7.10am. Almost daily. I will have to report school earlier than students and seriously i am kind of nervous about what i need to do on the first day. By the way, going through all those teaching strategies in the training programme. I begin to recollect what i have done in my primary school days. Okay you see, i was a really short, tiny and timid boy in primary school. I am most afraid of my primary 4 teacher. It was pressurizing. This teacher of mine, give a plentiful of sarcastic remarks to every students. If you laugh too loudly she says you laugh like hyena. If you fail to hand in your work she will threaten to call your parents. I don;t know but i am very afraid of teaching calling my parents. I think its shameful. Its shameful in a way that you need your mother to reason it out for you to your teacher. She forced every student to complete the primary 4 science "i am a botanist" project. She is cruel. But she did manage to bring good grades to me. But life under those kind of atmosphere was plain frightening. Every morning i wake up and i fear or being scolded or being embarrassed. Today seems like a bad day. Everything hasn't been smooth and there is always something that disrupts my momentum. Sigh. Hope tomorrow will be a better day. 3:36 AM
Monday, March 15, 2010
It sucks to be blamed for nothing. I hate ppl who treats you the best when they need you and throw you aside once they are done using you.The worst thing is they are someone close to you. People like these totally don't deserve to be in this world seriously. Self centered and selfish. Their character is just utter rubbish. I got my worst semestral results ever. Damn. There is no supp papers but i can see my GPA sinking to the bottom like there is no end. Every semester just gets harder. I am not sure if i am capable to study nutrition and disease. My brain just cant store that much info and i feel that i prefer studying modules which are lighter and require more maths. On a lighter note, i went for the briefing for the teaching intern. Awesome. I am posted to Hai Sing Catholic and someone from SP is being posted to the same as me. She seems kinda quiet. Hopefully nothing screws up! Training will start on 18 and end on 19. Then i will proceed on to teach for 4 weeks from 22 march to most likely 16 april? I need some motivation and here you go. The question should be, is it worth trying to do, not can it be done. - Allard Lowenstein, twentieth-century American diplomat 3:08 AM
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
I want to dedicate this post to my dearest Kim Taeyeon. I wanna wish her happy 21years old birthday(22 in korea) May all your wishes come true and stay cheerful, pretty and cute! For guys like my living in a single life. We often to find ourselves pretty lonely at night and sometimes whenever we feel like telling someone about something we fail to find a person to pour our excitement. Since becoming a fan of SNSD last year. My single life has greatly improved. Whenever i feel upset, troubled and lonely. I listen to SNSD's songs. It kills all my unwanted emotions instantaneously. But no one has captured my heart so much as Taeyeon. She is the leader of this 9 person girl group and have one of the most amazing vocals. I could only set my eyes one her and no room for other girls. XD her actions are adorable and lovable. Her personality is what attracts me the most. She is someone who works very hard and is able to take stress. She never complains a lot and is always putting 101% for every training or performance. She is everything i seek for. But, i will continue to support her and love her as my idol. She will always be and cant imagine SNSD without taeyeon. For all the reasons i feel happy today because its her birthday. I feel even more happier than on my own birthday. If she do come down to Singapore. OMG. I will be there personally to catch a glimpse of her. KIMTAEYEON< 3      12:48 AM
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